out of the rut

I don't know if my first blogging experience was a success or not. I'm not sure how I feel about people responding to my thoughts without seeing them in person. I'm not a telephone person, I hear better with my glasses on. Although the two comments were not about what I said but about me actually blogging I had a very strange reaction. I was uncomfortable, my wife finds my discomfort extremely amusing, but I didn't find it amusing at all when I told her about it. I felt like I was cheating on my wife because two women left comments. It matters not that both my wife and I are friends with both women and I'm old enough to be ones dad and real close to being old enough to being the others dad, I was uncomfortable. It made me realize other discomforts that had occured and are occuring in my life. I realized that for 28 years I had been in the same job and pretty much been on cruise control in my life. A year ago I took the cruise control off and accepted a promotion, something I had done before but gave back because I didn't like it. Well I'm actually liking my new job and the challenges that it has brought. But after blogging and finding discomfort in the comments as well as my wifes response, I realized that I'm not as comfortable with change as I've led myself to believe. Getting out of a rut is alot of work and its painfull. there are however rewards: 1) I've learned lol means laugh out loud. 2) I've learned =) actually means something and isn't a mistake. 3) My friend Arlene can actually revel in my discomfort and have a joyous day ( don't think less of her, I've more than earned it) 4) I've realized that I need to examan myself and my life more critically and like my mom laugh at myself more readily 5) I also need to take more side trips to keep from getting into a rut again and allowing my vision to narrow as I have in the past. so I look forward to learning more no matter how much discomfort it causes.